i just want it...

known...i am not a fan of red tape; 'corporate' ideology; all the crap that one has to go through just to do their job; which they enjoy.

i've been reading a lot charles sanders peirce's work, and his ideas are getting to me. he states: 'there is no royal road to logic, and really valuable ideas can only be had at the price of close attention. but i know that in the matter of ideas the public prefer the cheap and nasty...'

reason is out the window. thought has become secondary, or as he calls it decorative. '...if questions of conduct are alone to interest us. they, therefore, demand that it shall be plain and facile. if, in special cases, complicated reasoning is indispensable, they hire a specialist to preform it. the result of this state of thing is, of course, a rapid deterioration of intellectual vigour, very perceptible from one generation to the next. this is just what is taking place among us before our eyes; and to judge from the history of constantinople, it is likely to go on until the race comes to a despicable end.'

is there any hope?

as i type this, i am taking an 'harassment' 'course' for one of my teaching positions. i guess this is the face of corporate america. cover your ass. that becomes the name of the game. reason has left the building.

at other places...policies are changed without any knowledge of them. not due to anything on my part. just as i want to do something; which i've always done...it's become an 'oh, by the way...' scenario. thanks guys for the memo. no instead i get memos to look above my mailbox for packages.

this has gone on longer that i expected...i guess i ought to pay attention to my harassment 'training'...

amitabha...

compassion...

what does it mean?

i brought up this topic in my religion class the other day. the religion is not important, because it is the concept that is. what does it mean to be compassionate?

to be kind? helpful? these were some concepts that came up. in my dictionary this is what was presented: sympathetic pity and concern for the sufferings or misfortunes of others.

a story was presented of a classmate who owns property, and rents out the houses. that sometimes people skip on their rent, take off, and with them the appliances in the house. the christian in her allows this. a helping of others. they must need it more than i attitude.

is this compassion?

i presented just the opposite concept...this is not compassion, but enabling, and being taken advantage of.

compassion is a dichotomy.

being taken advantage of in the name of compassion, enabling in the name of compassion is not compassion. doing the right thing by helping someone out to better themselves is compassion. if that means, in some perceived way, being mean to them...then that is compassion. if the above is the christian concept of compassion, then it is not wonder that i want no part of that.

coming from a buddhist perspective, it is a very difficult concept. a difficult moral decision. what becomes the compassionate route? compassion is difficult. however; i am then reminded of what nietzsche said about what is worth having...it is never easy...

amitabha...

my heart...

hangs low.

i hear the news on the radio...and it seems on a weekly basis another child dies at the hands of their parent. for no reason. none.

recently; a woman gets put away for killing her children, and claims she hears voices in her head to do it. insanity plea. she gets put away in a psyche ward.

the most recent story was a father put a pillow over his child's face, because the baby was crying...the child suffocated and died.

i ask...how? why?

these are children. babies. who have done nothing wrong. who did not ask for existence. who are now just trying to exist. to live. no one said that children are easy.

as i mourn for the children, anger fills...against those who would commit such an act.

justice? there is none. you took an innocent life. innocent in every sense of the word. for these people there should be no trial. no excuse. just take them out back and put a bullet in the back of their head. there is no reason for what they have done. and now they get to live, because of some insanity plea...they get a fighting chance...what about their children? did they get one? do they get a voice? nope. however you do...how is that possible?

i can't find any compassion for them. none.

our system is weak.

amitabha...

please read...

and take part...

national park action

we need this, we deserve this...

amitabha...

um...

cool as hell...

Steve Brown - Proof Of Concept


amitabha...

track the president...

and his campaign promises on the obameter, that has been set up by the st. petersburg times. i also put it as a link on the side...

amitabha...

my vaction hasn't been...

yo yo factory's the mighty flea ultra-mini...
Originally uploaded by divine_gear

filled with yo as much as i would have hoped that it would. however; i've noticed that since the beginning of the semester (last week), and my preparation for it; and the semesters to come (some other schools start this week, and then the next)...i've been picking up a yo more and more. i think it is becoming a meditative tool for me. just to let it all go, and focus on something else.

in my search for fun new meditative tools; i came across this little guy from yo yofactory. the quarter is for reference of size. it came with the blue bag, and in one of those cheap plastic 'balls' you get from a gum ball machine. it is a challenging yo.

since it is only the diameter of a quarter; i'm able to keep it in my pocket, and no one would be the wiser.

amitabha...